Peter Pan Syndrome

Does anyone else feel their age?  No, I’m being serious.  Do you actually feel your age?  I’ve been thinking about this lately.  The passage of time and the idea that one would be in a certain place in life.  This month is bringing a few milestones.  Today, I’m blowing out 35 candles on the birthday cake.  The other big one is that Luke and I are celebrating our 10th wedding anniversary.

The years are passing and, yet, I still don’t feel much older than this picture.

Not that I feel immature.   I definitely am more emotionally mature than a child, but part of me thinks I should feel older than I do.  In a way I feel like I might be an impostor in an adult world.  I still really, really get excited for birthdays.  I love going for ice cream like I used to with my dad.

John and his ice cream

I’m still curious and love exploring the ocean and looking for treasures cast aside by the sea.

Conor and a snail at Minot Beach, 2011

Halloween?  It is still my favorite holiday!

John & Conor, Halloween in Scituate Harbor 2011

I always thought at 35, I would feel like a proper adult.  I always thought I would be wise and know all the answers to my kids questions, but I don’t.

I always thought, I would be able to blow dry my hair and it would look amazing (like my mom), but I can’t.  Whenever I try to blow it out, it looks like one curly nest on my head!

I always thought at 35, I would feel like a grown up.  But I don’t.  I still feel so young and I love playing with my kids.

I love building forts in the backyard and chasing after bubbles:

Do you ever feel the same?

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